school ends in just under a month and i cannot wait that long please get me out of this hellhole

the teachers are plain crazy but the people are batshit

im getting 3 months of bliss but then i have to go to high school and if there's anything that heathers and mean girls have taught me it's that high schoolers are derranged and want to kill you

i procrastinate too much so i probably have to stop doing that and maybe i'll be fine academically

i wish it was that easy with people

anyway im also kinda worried about the integrity of my parents marriage because i accidentally found out my dad is messaging women online and also if either of them find out im trans then they'll fight like hell over that before while and after they kick me out i feel So Safe In My Home Right Now :heart:

ok back to high school idk who i am or who i want to be so i still have to make up my mind about that like im ugly im nerdy im nothing like anyone else im abnormally childish the list goes on

im praying they have a science club or something because thats the only plausible place i can think of to find people anything like me in

too alternative and flimsy to do sports too conventional to go to GSA the only thing i know is what i'm not

getting a partner is out of the question because i like men while male presenting and in about 0 ways attractive waaah waaah woe is me what the fuck am i saying anymore im gonna go drown my malaise in melatonin and ice cream bye